At what point did you know you were an atheist? Why did you become one, what were the factors leading up to the decision, if you weren’t always one?
For most of my life, I believed in a higher power, but was against organized religion. As I grew up, I didn’t really look into labels however I fell into the agnostic/deistic category where I figured, “well if there’s a God then he created science and then fucked off”..
When I was seventeen and upgrading courses after graduating highschool, I got into physics and outer space, it was just super fascinating to me. And deep down, while I was looking at pictures from the Hubble telescope and reading about black holes, I just sort of admitted to myself that the idea of God seemed kind of stupid, and that there’s little to no possibility that there’s a grand plan for humanity.
It wasn’t until just last year, actually, that I finally “declared” myself an official atheist. What had happened was one of my good friends contacted me because she was extremely depressed about her boyfriend dumping her, so I went and hung out with her during which she ranted about how she was atheist but was willing to keep quiet about it while dating her evangelical christian boyfriend. He just kept pushing his beliefs on her and his entire family detested her, and finally after about two years of them dating he finally said, “I can’t date someone who doesn’t believe in God”. And the whole situation just seemed so messed up to me, not the part about him wanting to date a believer, but his ridiculous “arguments” to try to convert her… It confused me that someone so smart and compassionate could have been hurt by someone so stupid.
Anyway, then I really got into atheism and started reading more about how fucked up religions are and just became extremely fed up with the corrupt world.
And, my boyfriend considered himself an atheist up until just recently when he said, “I’m more of a Possibilian” which is okay, but I’d say most atheists could agree with that in a way. It’s kind of a given… and not yet testable. So, I don’t really see the point in going so far as to call yourself a possibilian, but alright whatever lol.